WuWu~~~

Hello guys,
Yup,
Even I can't believe I'm writing a blog
During 5AM in the morning XD

This is sucks,
yesterday(11th April)
Awake at 4.30pm,
Then having headache for the rest of the day

Afterward
I took a pill by GOD
PANADOL ( the ActiFast one ah)
Sibeh effective man
Went back to sleep at 9
Then woke up at 11..... WTH MAN=.=

Nothing to do,
Then study for the trial 2mrw,
Then go out yum cha wif my tall indian fren, roy again
Hahaha,
Gonna believe this shit,
He didn't sleep for the fifth day man,
Worse than me....
That's a very unhealthy lifestyle he's having

Got home at 2,
Thought about sleep at 3,
Mana tau go to bed at 4=.=
(But can't fall asleep)
And here I am at 5 =D

Dammit,
but still,
Better study right now for tomorrow
HAHA, Godspeed to everyone for the test XD

What a shame~~~

Today my grandma called me and listen to something unhappy
MY SISTER

My grandma said,
"she's getting more and more useless and worse than before"
this is a sad case
as she's bad enough when I leave Sandakan last time,
I don't mind if
She's lazy to study and following those
So-called frens

But I'm fucking beh song a few things,
She had become a goddamn spoiled brat,
Thx to my parents,
She keep wasting OUR parents' money
and buy shits which might cost
more than what I use for a sem here....

Goddammit,
that I'm still ok....
BUT...
Thx to my parents,
She's fucking disrespect my MUM than ever,
Last time she keep shout at my mum,
and I scolded her a few times but she wasn't even listen,
NOW,
she even started to scold vulgar to my mum?
WTF??
They brought you to this world and that's how you treat them??

I really wish she could change her attitude before I really slap her in the face one day.....

I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

Today, finally can see your face....
You might not be realising it....
Coz you dunno that I
Can't keep my eyes off of you...
You might not be beautiful from the outside
But your inner self always attracts me
Cause it is something more than a physical attraction =)

HAHAHA...
Macam CASANOVA sudah ni...
Even if u look at my blog...
I don't think you're the one that im talking about....
But you don't have to, I think
As long as we chat, communicate and laugh together
That's already enough for me =D

Mafan Mafan~~~

Yo.... back to blogging again=p
But still, long time din blog jor, after tis post, I gonna have.... 5 posts i think? XD

Haizz... Mafan lar this time,
I'm seriously sucks at time planning
I'm suppose to have my IELTS this Friday,
But then,
I didn't even send in my form to the
GODDAMN BRITISH COUNCIL...

Damn lar, who told you to put your station at
GAYA STREET lar, Freaking far tis...

Anyway, I don't think I gonna have my IELTS anytime soon...
A2 trial is coming soon
and I don't have the mood to...
STUDY.....

Seriously,
Compare facebook and face the book,
I'm sure majority will choose the 1st choice.

Besides that, haizzzzzz
there are a chinese quote,
"朋友妻，不可欺"
which means, do not take advantages on friends' gf
damn.... I don't know what's this feeling.

My friend told me,
"You better don't touch either of them,
or U gonna be a big trouble"
That's not a threat, but a warning.
Well, he's right. I know I shouldn't....
But... Damn.... IT SUCKS....

But still,
After thought about it clearly,
Is it worthy??
Factors for not pursuiting 'HER'
1. I gonna leave this place soon.
2. I got 2 friendship at stake, if you know what I mean
3. I'm not even sure I'm her type of tea or not =="

Aiya, forget it bah,
Aiya, give up bah,
Aiya, don't think bout it lar.....
But still.... AIKS.... I guess it would be the best lor....~~~

Boring=Torture

God damn it.... It's such a boring weekend for me for these 2 days....
I spend all of my times in front of my desktop and doing nothing....
Haizz..... Everytime I thought I can go out for entertainment....
Then its been cancel or even been abandon....
Super boring days...
I sibeh hate this kind of feelings....
I been through the days meaninglessly coz i got nothing to do at all....
Sienz ah.... Most of the time I tried to find stupid stuff to do....
But the best is.... I a kind of save up some money for myself though...~~
Oh ya.... Finally... I touch my guitar after such a long time....
Damn.... It's been a long time since I had played it....
Now I hv trouble with my fingers to play even single song....
Swt.....

Keep Going OR End It???

Finally.... me and she are contacting each other again....
After what had happened.... Doesnt matter that is a misunderstanding or a truth....
it directly affected my feeling towards her already.....
Since the day she didn't pick up my phone or reply my sms.... I had a bad feeling about this relationship....
From that moment.... I had very terrible feelings that I will lose her from my arm....
I had many different thoughts about what happen to her phone LIKE "she lose her phone""her phone kena stole"
However.... I just can't force myself to believe that AND
After a few days.... She started to find me again ( thx to one of my friend )
But then... I don't feel like want to pick up her phone... I don't want hear her explanation.... Reply her or even THINK bout her...
COZ I HAD BEEN FUCKING ANGRY!!!
She gimme a feeling like she had lie to me.... and even worse.... betray me!!!
But today.... when things about to get better... there she is again.... saying me this bad that bad while I didn't even did stuff like that.... I HATE IT WHEN SHE ALWAYS LIKE THAT!!!
Then we had a small fight and she say we separate for a month bah....
For some reason.... I just can't accept that... Why? Why are we separate for?
I don't like that feeling anymore.... I scare everything she will do behind my back....
Then... I just her to change a bit of her attitude when she always speak to me sometimes....

But then.... she still think shes right?? why?? why cant u just be more reasonable???
Everytime u say something that will make me angry.... U say im "small gas"??
Cant even tell why I will always get angry??
Then... I feel this relationship is just getting worse time to time since the day u lost ur feeling towards me.....
I just hope you realise what is the problem now before its all too late....

Loniliness~~

And again... today... i call my friends and didn't answer my call.... TMD.... say liao tonight go cyber together and i got left abandon by them again.... I really fucking hate this feeling.... I tried to not think about anything stupids about my friend.... but... it just happen again, and again, and again.... I don't understand why they keep doing this to me.... Am I really tat TAO REN YEN.... Or some other reason.... I really hope they can tell me and I really wish I be as friend as before with them again.... I just hope this kind of things wont happen again.... Coz I had been an EMO state for a few days =(